Who To Be?

Hello,

I have struggled mightily recently with this thought:

“Who am I to be?”

I think the reason I struggle so much with this thought is the sheer possibilities of what God could do. I love Church History, I love Biblical Languages, I love teaching, I love preaching, I love counseling, and I love writing. Part of me wants to wrap all of that together in a nice bow. PhD, Pastor, and Professor all combined into one with a successful writing career to boot.

But I keep running into the same issue: capacity. I have a beautiful wife and 5 children. I could easily do my job, and spend the rest of my life just loving on my family and my local church. That would be a noble task indeed, but would require me to sacrifice all those things I love and want to bring to the world. So, what should I do? I am back to square one. I want to do everything, but have no plan to do anything. I want to be everything, but only have the capacity to be a couple. Where is the answer to the question that haunts me? Who am I to be?

-NR