Intensives

Hello,

I once quivered when faced with intensity. I flinched whenever things were piling too high. It is the reason I did not immediately pursue a Master’s Degree after getting a Bachelor’s. I wasn't sanctified enough to do it well. Whenever I had a large project in my undergraduate, I would procrastinate until the product I turned in was nothing more than the rambling musings of a highly caffeinated and sleep-deprived man. I knew if I was to go back to school, it would be because the Lord had worked new disciplines in my life. Part of me “knew” that would never happen. I could never love my God enough to put off my childish ways. And so I went about my measly existence, resigned to the fact that I would not realize the potential God had for me.

But God had a different plan (Doesn’t he always?). The further I get in life, the more I am amazed at his faithfulness. He has stirred affections in my heart I never imagined he would. In my pride, I thought my unfaithfulness was too much for him to sanctify. I truly believed my failures were too much for God to change.

Now, here I am reading my fourth Augustine book of the week for an Intensive, and I am enjoying it. I just finished a research paper that took me a month and a half, and I felt excited and edified throughout the process. I sit here, overwhelmed at the goodness of a God who would take a distracted, lazy, worthless man like me, and stir me to chase after him with full abandon. 

Keep your eyes on him. You never know what he will do. 

-NR